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[Oct. 12th, 2006|10:47 am] |
Tomorrow is my birthday.I certainly don't feel too grand about it,I haven't celebrated it in several years and for quite a few reasons.The main two,I suppose,are that everytime it comes around,things seem to go wrong,horribly at that.And then the other reason,it seems no one cares,it makes me feel like why should I then if I can't even get a happy birthday out of anyone-my own friends and family.
Even though last year nothing awful happened,I still felt down,I'm trying to change that this time,I'm trying to be joyful about it.I've have told some of my friends (online ones anyway),but I don't know.Why am I'm bothering with it? Well,the same as last year,as long as nothing bad happens,I'll be glad. |
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| Yet again (crap not again!) |
[Oct. 11th, 2006|09:47 am] |
Once more leading up to my birthday things seems to spiraling out of control of again.Bills are late,the things I thought I had done right are going array,and work is looking ugly once more.My drawer ended up a few dollars short,and it wouldn't be a problem if coperate and the district manager didn't act so ignorant about it,especially considering that the register I was using has a tendancy to screw up infornation and paperwork (plus I don't think my boss counted it right).I hope everything turned out ok at the ned of the day,I don't feel like getting written up again about this crap.Still need to find another job,but that's looking grim as usual.
Man I need a break from all this mess,this is strenuous. |
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| And so the world becomes undone (and I saved a mouse) |
[Oct. 6th, 2006|08:17 am] |
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This week has been lame,boring,daunting,and monotonous.I keep reading and hearing awful things all over the place.First was hearing about one of my mother's friends losing her new baby due to lung complications,then a friend of mine tells me her lil brother has gotten really ill and is in the hospital.I also have another of my friends in the hospital too,but over something about telling her parents how she her hurts herself out of frustration (one time dealy that one).They went off the deep in and had her put in psychactric care for the next two weeks.
Can't say my situation is any,let alone am I feeling any better:This feeling of ambling along, working all the time with vague transitions between my regular routine has gotten worst.I feel like a sheep being herded along than the sheperd.I have no motivation to try and draw or read;there is nothing that has inspired me in such to do so,and pushing myself to put pencil to paper hasn't worked much either.And I have been having lewd periods of disgust and hatred torwards alot of things and people lately.Sadly,I know the reasons for those feelings,and I've said it time and time again-the endless purgatory that is situation.I know I'm not the only one going through things right now,seems everyone is all over lately.I wonder when it will come to a conclusion though.
At any rate,last night finally got another of those mice in the glue traps I set.Kept hearing something squeak fromt he kitchen while I was playing the game.My twin bro was sliding the trap backing under the mircowave stand,and I asked him why was he trying to let the mouse go.I moved it and grabbed a bag when I say that it was just a baby mouse,and it was cute!! I wanted that big idiot that kept running around,but I didn't want to this one.My lil bro saw it and we both decided to just let it go.Took us about 40mins. to get it off the glue trap (those things actually work o_o).At one point I thought we were going to tear its legs off because it was stuck pretyy good on there.My lil bro got some warm soap and water so we could get the glue off.The lil guy actually calmed down enough for me to pet once it realized it wasn't going to bite the big one.Afterwards we let off into a field away from our house.That's about the most excitment I've had this week considering how dull and discouraging things have been. |
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| Man this is going to be rough |
[Oct. 3rd, 2006|03:54 pm] |
Called the computer shop that's currently holding my pc.The technician found out it was the motherboard that was causing the machine to stop functioning properly and it needs to be replaced.A used motherboard is going to run about $45,plus the for the pc being their and the work to install is going to runb about $100....which I don't have at the moment.Plus the fact that I still don't really have any hours at work isn't helping either.I guess I can kiss getting FFXII goodbye unless something positive comes up.That or I take out a loan to take care of my business.I consider those things to be the equivilant of selling your sold,but I don't have too many options available.If it comes down to it though,I might have to. |
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| Seriously not in a good mood |
[Sep. 30th, 2006|12:38 pm] |
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Finally got knocked off the cloud I've been floating on the past week.I still don't really have any hours at work and I don't know if the places that gave me my extra hours will be able to do so again.The head honcho of the district has been riding everyone like donkeys that have been without food or water for two months,then breaking their legs.My store got a massive truck early that morning,so it is pretty much leveled again like last week.Plus Ms. District grateful to inform my boss that there be only to be at the store during the course of the day.HTF does she and coperate expect anything to get done there,or remotely sell anything?They are seriously tripping,dosen't make sense!!
That day sucked,not to metnino my favorite pair of white shades got stepped on by the assistant manager.I loved those things too! She said I could get a new pair,the ones I have now are blue,but they don't compare to the white ones.
Today wasn't any better.I rode out to work with my boss at 5am(!) to help put up stock.We did a decent amount even after the other worker came,but when the store opened...
Hell we were super busy with just one line open!! And customers were getting pissed because certain either weren't ont he shelves yet,the line was too long,or other problems we had no control over.Ungrateful bastards,they don't know how much work and bullshit we have to do with to even try to get this store looking decent!! My boss has pretty much been overwhelmed this past week,and along with a few other things that I found out today (one of my friend's artgalleries getting cleaned out by the mods.Apparently she "traces" all her pieces.),then an issue with my check last night (I didn't get all of my hours O:<!!),I am not very pleasant right now... |
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| Some weird dude tried to bum a ride with me |
[Sep. 28th, 2006|03:42 pm] |
Started out for work this morning like I normally do (well after I got some gaming in,hehehe).Went and stopped at the gas station real quick and got something to eat and kept on my track.I normally don't see anyone walking in the morning like I do since no on sane would walk from another town just to work,but I there was some odd looking guy walking at least 200 yards ahead of me this morning.It struck me alittle creepy cause the guy kept looking back and I was like "Ok this guy must know I walk to work almost everyday and get rides every now and then."I figured if I didn't pass him soon enough he was going to ruin my chances of making it to work on time.
I was reaching the outskirts of town when this green car pulls over to the shoulder opposite to where I am...and where that creepy guy was. The guy starts jogging abit to the car and then it pulls over by the bait shop.I start thinking to myself "hey I've seen that car before!" and then it pulls over to where I am.It turned out to be this lady I know,Miss Tonya,and her sister driving the car.Anyway,Tonya hopped out and told me to get on in and...then the creepy guy comes over! She asks me if I knew the guy,and before I could get a word out the guy was like "yeh we were walking together" and tries to get in the car.I was like nooooo,and she said "Sorry we can't talk you,we were stopping him since he's a friend of our nephew" and proceeded to go to town.
I told her I didn't know the guy and she said he kept looking back at me every so often,but I kinda felt bad since we were headed the same direction.Tonya sister was said if I knew the guy it would have been different,but she dosen't go around picking up people she dosen't know (can't fault her for that).Still,it was friggin' weird,hope I don't see that guy again. |
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| Friggin tired (Hooray for Final Fantasy!!) |
[Sep. 25th, 2006|04:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| |  mellowed out on SquareEnix stu | ] |
Ok it's only been a few days since the new work week has started and I'm ready feeling worn out.I got hours coming out the wazoo right now,so I'm pretty much using everyday this week to work.I worked Saturday night back in the town I stay in then Sunday on the other side of town fromt he store I normally worked at.Surprisingly I felt less worn out Sunday than I did Saturday even though I pretty much worked 9hrs that day.I still ended up having to walk home part of the way =__= (my mother is so fucking unreliable). Today was ok,I didn't particular car for the fact that I had to stay on the register during my whole shift,but still;I hate working on it now since that mess about the register being short earlier this month.I hardly ever have a short register,but since the damn things keep actting weird (cheap bastards at coperate) it makes it hard.Have to call back up there to see if it was short later;manager dosen't wanty anyone counting down their own drawer anymore.Pisses me off too,not that I don't trust them (sort of) but I would rather do it myself just to be sure.
At any rate I am happy yhat I have plenty of hours,but I would feel better if I could spend my earnings on what i would like to do than bills that my mom should be taking care of.So sick of her and my bros being lazy argh >_<!!
On a lighter note I reserved a copy of Final Fantasy XII today~JOYGASM!! I've been waiting for this game to come out for like 3 years now and I'll be getting towards the end of next month with some hope and luck (more hope than anything).I hope it's good,the last time I checked on it the graphics looked awesome,not to mention that it is based on one of the best FF universes in my opinion (go Ivalice!).Also,I have a very bad fixation with the Viera from the game,especially Fran.Darn,I wish I had a decent image to show of her,but meh,maybe they'll have some out when the game is actually released...or I could stop being lazy and look harder XP. |
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